i'm feeling.. don't what to say. decided to skip dinner. don't feel like eating. don't know why suddenly no appetite
today's preaching was a video by a pastor about working in a local church.
i don't know why i suddenly feel so down after the thing. i kept thinking about the previous video that i have watched. the one that Bale Wilson was preaching. odn't know why it kept filling my head up.
the main thing : one person can make a difference, despite of your background or where you are from
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there was once a girl who couldn't master english well and went to work in a church. she could not absorb most of the preaching as her english was bad but she was faithful to God just like all the other christians. she then wanted to help out in church and going around saving small children. the pastors of that particular church agreed to let her go. it was like months before she actually proposed to the pastors about helping out.
and the only english sentence she learnt was : " i love you, Jesus loves you ".
so she went on to work as something like a bus attendant and that bus only picks up children to churches for either services and so on. so on her first day of work, there was a lilttle boy sitting at a lil corner at the backseat. he was filthy and dirty and didn't have a proper home to stay. for your info, the children in that bus either came from broken families or suffering from poverty. so the girl then decided to talk to the boy because he was all by himself.
but she didn't know what to say. her english wasn't that good. so she sat beside that boy and said, " i love you, Jesus loves you ". the boy was like 4, 5 years old then and couldn't speak well. the girl then kept repeating the same thing to him over and over again.
days passed by, the girl and the lil boy then became friends. everyday when picking the children up, when the boy came, he would walk to the girl and sit on her lap and have fun with her. something like when you play with a baby. the innocence of the boy was then clearly shown. the girl will then repeat " i love you, Jesus loves you " over and over again in the bus to him eithe when picking the children up or fetching them home.
one fine day when the boy was about to leave the bus for home, he went close to the girl's ear and said, " i..i...i... l.lo...lo..lov..love... yo...you.... Je..Jesus.. lo..loves... you.. " and then he left the bus.
the next day when the bus went to pick him up, he could not be seen. he was found dead near a rubbish dump near his house. he did not have a proper house, it was at a void deck of a block or smth and he slept on cardboard boxes. the girl could not believe that he was dead..
the last words that the boy heard were, " i love you, Jesus loves you ". the boy felt the love of God and the girl made a really great impact on just a lil boy's life.
one person can really make a difference.
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`God gave everything that i have to me. even the people that i sit beside during service is all planned by God.
`God made everyone different in a way. you don't have to be like anyone else.
if you look at something which you really want and you want it so badly, and then you look at the price tag, sometimes you get pissed. everything comes with a price, you want that something?. you have to pay a PRICE for it. it sure gonna cost you.
sometimes in life, things just come and go.. happiness and sadness come and go as well. as when you have lost something dearly to you, are you going to sit at one corner and start crying?. okay crying a while it's okay. but are you going to do that forever?. life still has to go on. no one is gonna wait for you, but God is there for you.
HE sees you through every step that you take and if you might fall, it's not HIM that is gonna pick you up. it's YOU who's gonna pick yourself up. but He's there to ensure that you stand steadily.
we only have a lifetime to do things that we want and treasure what we have. we do not have a thousand or a million years to do so.
maybe a second ago i was having in possession of something, who knows the next second, it will be gone. when you come close enough to this kind of situations, you change.
i don't have to care what other people think of me, i live for myself, her and for God.
i don't know why i'm typing all these. i'm jst having a feeling that things that is gonna happen the next day is so unpredictable. everytime i think of the sermone by Bale Wilson, i just feel so impacted by him and there's alot of things that i wanna say and do before it's too late.
i will cherish and treasure you,
not today, not tmr, not the day after..
but forever.
you are the one who made that difference in my life.
posted by Rod @ 9:00 PM,
