Moved!
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Haha, I have moved on to http://mrroddy.wordpress.com.
See you there!
posted by Rod @ 11:40 PM,
Afraid?
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
As the day draws nearer, fear begins to set in my heart.
I guess I have too much time to think about it and that's why I'm having fear in me. I'm not bombarded with assignments from school just yet and with that ample time that I have in my hands, not really that much but more than what others have, I begin to think of many things.
Speculate no longer. It's not going to be released on the 18th.
Oh, the Os results. After months and months of pushing myself and going forth, it all comes back to me in one slip of paper. I don't really know how much I will score, with all the scoring background that I have, mid-years as well as prelims, I didn't score as well as many others and that was when my faith leaked and I began to doubt at times. But seriously, it took my lots of faith to really believe for what God has installed for me.
It just seemed to be like weeks ago that I was doing up my D&T folio, getting ready for submission, stayed back late in school to complete my folio as well as to study, but in actual fact just a little. It's just those times which made Sec 4 fun and it's all these things which Sec 4 was all about.
I remember all the time, my report book comes back with all kinds of results. I'm not like a perfect scorer of 6 or neither am I a slacker with results of 54. I'm just an average person though, but lower than average in the sense compared to the whole level of Sec 4s. People ask me what happened and seriously, I don't know. I studied and I made sure my studying methods are suitable for me and effective as well, but somehow the results were just not coming out.
I blogged about the greatness and the goodness of God all the time. And I'm sure people will begin to doubt that when I get back my results and to their standard, it isn't good. But I don't really care much about that. Everyone has their own right to believe in what they believe in and for my case, I'm believing in a God whose ways and thoughts are higher than ours so for many people it's difficult for them to accept it.
Many people have different expectations of their own: Smart kids will cry if they get 10. Average kids will cry if they get 25 or something. I don't know, I'm just guessing around. Afterall, I don't see why people have to judge each other based on their own results and using theirs as a benchmark to gauge others.
Increasing competitiveness amongst peers brings about peer pressure. How many can really say they study because they love the subject, and not because others are doing well and they're not? No point studying if you're doing so because of peer pressure. What's the point my friend? Especially when you're not enjoying what you're studying and doing so for the sake of doing it.
But we really don't have any choice, do we? I'm just like any other victims of Singapore's education system. If I have the chance, I would love to choose my own subject combination. Throw away Geography Elect. and replace it with Photography; something like that. With that, I will definitely love to study but no, this is not reality. This is just a dream.
But in anything that happens, I'll give thanks to God, for if not for Him I will not have survived till today. Haha, thank God for no more suicidal thoughts. Haha, some of you will be surprised. A jovial person like me could have suicidal thoughts before? Oh, yes, that's true. Haha, but that was a long long time ago. Once upon a time. My fulfilling life now comes from the Lord. Praise the Lord.
(Sidetracking)
(Not a good job done. I can't be bothered doing a good one.)
I'm still fed up with what the garmen is doing. Even before my school starts I have to pay adult fare already. What is this? I went to purchase a concession pass at the start of this month and the lady at the Ticketing counter told me that I have another half a month left before my card expires. So I thought, no point purchasing a concession pass when I spend like $30 on transport within half a month and that's the same amount I have to pay.
On the exact date of 15 January 08, my concession privileges were cut off. Only except for now I get to enjoy student meals from Macdonald's', Burger King and KFC. I'll be getting my Matriculation Card this Friday, which is the 18th. I mean like, come on lah, 3 days only, you so niao (stingy) for what?
Money has been deducted from my EZ-Link card like the water of the river flowing downstream. And the minimum top-up value of my card must be $10. Wah lao, now I want to go somewhere far to galan galan also must think twice.
The only advantage that JC people have is that they still pay a concession fee of $27.50 while I have to pay $52. This is utter crap I tell you.
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 11:48 PM,
Different
Monday, January 14, 2008
It has been a long while since I last updated, but if I update everyday it means something is wrong with my life, as in I must be bored with my life and it's something which isn't true.
Haha, school's going to start for me this Friday so for those who are hating me for I'm still playing can now rejoice cause they now know that I'm going to study in a matter of days from now. Haha, but really, I don't see myself being as stress as they are now even with all the project work that I have cause at least I know and I have the assurance that I'm doing something along the line of th things which I enjoy doing. So I'm not going to study Chem or Physics in such great detail like the JC people are now, although my course do involve some Physics.
Just a little sidetrack, I've thought of abandoning this blog and then going on to another host, Wordpress actually, but now I'm thinking again. I got really excited cause I managed to find some nice Wordpress templates which are free and much better looking than those which they offer and only when I tried applying that template to my home page I realised that I have to pay a monthly fee; to subscribe to a customizable CSS template, which got me really pissed off.
Now I know why people like Amirul and Ming Jie choose that template for their Wordpress site cause the exact template that both of them are using now happen to be the best looking template out of those which Wordpress offers for free. Damn Wordpress lah.
I'm just getting bored of my current skin till I'm starting to hate how my blog looks like already. I might just abandon this site one day; I never thought I would say this, but yeah.
Everyone is like mugging like mad now, well, for TK people it's just purely because of peer pressure, except for those who are muggers themselves by nature.
Something which I found online which is pretty interesting. Nowadays the Police Force are getting more and more creative, and inculcating some psychological aspects into their work as well. This pictures is definitely trying to psycho people in getting them into a state of confusion so that they can do their work better.
Mickey's gone bad.
Seriously bad.
Bad mouse.
Now with the 4 days that I'm left with of educational freedom I'm going to do all those things which I've been putting aside for quite some time, going to spend time reading at home. Haha, oh I'm blessed with Harvest Times from City Harvest Church and it's a great magazine filled with sermons and articles worth while reading. Haha, if you're interested in knowing how to find your life partner, do tell me for this current copy has an article on it. Haha.
The older I get the more things I got to leave behind. That's life
Got this from the movie Rocky Balboa. It really is true. I sat myself down and as I evaluated my life and plan things ahead of what I'll be aiming for and going through in the future, I realised that I've already left many things behind along the way as I proceeded along with my life during the transition from primary to secondary school.
The memories will definitely stay, but in the realistic realm, friendships and relationships have been dropped. And now as everyone is going their own ways, I feel that it's going to take place again. I hope and pray that it change will not be drastic, but it's something inevitable, I guess.
The route that I take in my life seems to be a contrast from what the others would take. Going to church and committing my life in it for once, and going to Poly to continue my studies is another example. Not many people around me are taking the same route in life as me. And as I continue going forward, people seem to be dropping from my life, loss of contact, never communicate as much as we used to; things like that.
Ah, I'm just being random. It's already 2:10 am and I can't sort my thoughts out properly.
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 2:10 AM,
Amazing
Friday, January 04, 2008
It's amazing how when you act in obedience what God has told you to do, you will be blessed. Not just blessed, but really blessed.
It's amazing how just one word I received from God has put me in an amazing destiny in His house.
Joining the choir wasn't my usual interest and passion, but I acted on the Word of God and I've then stepped into an amazing destiny in His house. Hallelujah. Haha.
Haha, quite a few unglam pictures with my my mouth open cause they were taken while I was singing. Haha, yeah, all it takes is for you to obey what God tells you to do, He'll amaze you in all ways you will never expect.
Not making it into TK Choir doesn't mean I can't sing. Haha, God's been keeping me and holding me back to allow me to step into my destiny only 4 years later. 4 years might seem a long time, but it's over that fast. Haha, I'm not only going to sing, but I'm going to sing for His glory.
Schools like TK might have conductors like Mr Nelson Kwei to conduct the whole choir, but HOGC has Mr Alvaro Sanchez to conduct the Hearts' Symphony, Chinese Orchestra and the Choir. Like I said before, God works in ways higher than ours; His thoughts are higher than ours and His ways are higher than our ways.
Non-believers will not understand what it means to be able to communicate with God cause all that people think of Christians are that we pray and worship that's all. Almost every single religion in this world pray and worship their own gods.
Christianity is different; It's a relationship with God. It's not a one-way, but rather a two-way communication.
This is my very own testimony of how God works in our lives. Haha, searching for a purpose in life? This is it, my brother. All I did was to take an alternative route in life 2 years ago, an alternative life that most people won't take but for those who have experienced it and drew nearer to it as each day passes have never regretted holding on.
This is it.
Labels: Testimony
posted by Rod @ 9:22 PM,
Leakage
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
This is just like any other day when my faith leaks.
There are many instances that I can pray, just that I keep focusing on what's in the natural till I'm blind to the supernatural, usually for at least a while.
It takes so much faith, so much more than the usual for this instance. 5,279 km / 3,280 miles away from the shore of Singapore and I don't have a pair of eyes like God's that can oversee the world, and into lives of each individual.
It's so much easier to just put your trust into something which you can see with your own pair of eyes, cause you know what's going on and you can really see the move of God in a particular matter or person. For this case, I can't.
Prayers that move mountains.
I want that.
Prayers that move the heart of God.
I'm moving towards that.
Prayers that simply comes out of the heart.
I have that.
It's just down to 1 month. Just 1 month. And all dumb supermarkets are blasting Chinese New Year music like it's tomorrow or something and it justs irritates the crap out of me.
I need to go in strong.
Go in strong.
Go in strong.
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 9:18 PM,
