Tmr's exam. haa. after this post I'll start my revision till the end of the night.
It has been a week since I last blogged. pressure, stress. Things happened in my family.
I shalln't give up. This is just a test to see if I'm able to handle all these, if I were to just fail like that, how am I able to handle stuff waiting for me in the future?
Nothing is impossible with God.
For I know that with God, He would answer my prayers.
I'm in awe of the One who gave it all. And His light will shine when all else fades. He has shone light into my life, directing me on which path should I take and guide me along every step that I take. He is my God, my Life and my All.
The story of a teenager, who has God in his life. One day when he came back from school, he learnt that his mum was terribly ill. His mum went to the clinic and in the end has to be hospitalised, with her condition still unconfirmed. His mind went blank. It was the woman who gave birth to him, now lying in the hospital. He didn't know what to do or what he could do : but just to study for the upcoming exam.
For this, he turned to God. The bible stated, " Ask and It shall be given " He then asked for divine healing in his mother. Although his mum and him and some rough patches in their mother-son relationship, she's still his mum afterall. He sat quietly at his table, praying and crying out to God. In his heart he felt a sense of security and assurance, for he knows that God is faithful.
You Stood Before Creation
Eternity In Your Hand
You Spoke The Earth Into Motion
My Soul Now To Stand
You Stood Before My Failure
And Carried the Cross For My Shame
My Sin Weighed Upon Your Shoulders
My Soul Now To Stand
So What Could I Say?
And What Could I Do?
But Offer This heart Oh God
Completely To You
So I'll Walk Upon Salvation
Your Spirit Alive In Me.
This Life To Declare Your Promise
My Soul Now To Stand.
So What Could I Say?
And What Could I Do?
But Offer This Heart Oh God
Completely To You
And What Could I Do?
But Offer This Heart Oh God
Completely To You
I'll Stand
With Arms High And Heart Abandoned
In Awe Of The One Who Gave it All
I'll Stand
My Soul Lord To You Surrendered
All I Am Is Yours
posted by Rod @ 5:38 PM,
Fun day today. Took time off with the others to relieve stress as well as for a celebration.
Children are cute. but as they grow, it's hard to control them. However, whenever they let the cute side of themselves out and reveal them to you, your heart will just melt and turn soft, ain't it? haa.
There's the place in downtown east where the kids play. haa. I wanted to go in.
But i was overage. haa
The whole bunch of us were standing outside looking at them until a particular boy got "annoyed" and he started taking the plastic balls and throwing at us. There was of course, a glass wall and the balls deflected. So still not satisfied, he threw more and more. Some of us were like acting injured and dodging away. Smiles were upon their faces.
Initially, wanted to bowl and downtown but the place is under renovation or construction. So it has been closed since March. Suppose to cycle or rollerblade but the weather wasn't kind to us. You should know what I mean. In the end we end up at Safra, Cathay bowling. I didn't score the highest, Melson did.
" Melson E Geog Man "
haa. Take a look.
this monitor was for the first lane.
Ming Rong named me as E DNT MAN.
that ws our final score for the 2nd lane. try guessing which one is mine.
Went home with Cynthia and Wan Ling, taking 21. Then I realised how near they were staying near me, as well as other H.O.G.C members. Can even form a "gang" : H.O.G.C ; East Side.
I'm going for Band Com. TK Band HOOOOOO! FUUUU!
posted by Rod @ 11:50 PM,
It's just weird that women pms whenever they like. It's really hard to read their mind or understand them at all. take this for an example:
Your A-maths teacher's teaching half-way and she takes her things and just walked out of the class without saying anything. 2 students from the class goes to the staffroom and looked for her, they came back with an answer.
" She's PMSing and she doesn't want to see all of us. You're all to do your self-study."
There's only 10 minutes left before her lesson ended. everyone would rather study for Chem test rather than doing A-maths. Speaking about that, no wonder they said that 2 marks will be added to mid-year if you're able to score an A1 and 1 mark for an A2. I studied and I did the paper. I shall leave the rest to God.
The paper was meant to be 50 minutes at first. then TKH came in and wrote this on the board.
Sorry if it's blur. My hand was shaking. but I hate that face. Looks sadistic.
That was only written around 3.10 at which the paper was suppose to finish at 3.15. I almost thought I couldn't finish and had to rush things out. That's the efficiency of TKSS teachers. But I have nth against TKH, it's just that I can't seem to excel in Chemistry under the teaching of Mrs Tan.
That's Yap Seng. shows how slack we are during english lessons.
posted by Rod @ 5:30 PM,
What and Where I am now is because of the choices that I've made in the past.
What and Where I will be in the future depends on the choices I make now.
God is really a great and good God. He gave me choices to choose from.
From now on, I shall not fight with something that I've no choice of, but I will flow with it.
I have a choice of what I want to make of my life, and I shalln't let my parents destroy my future. This is my life.
Choices allow true love.
at least now I'm still able to take a shot of being a soundman. finallly. after so many weeks after that tests that everyone else took except for me and wei jie.
at least now I'm not really gonna whack mr singh. but he still deserves a whacking because of the shirt. haa.
P.S
What I can is limited. The rest is all up to you. It's your choice of how you want to handle the situation. You have the freedom of choosing.
posted by Rod @ 10:39 PM,
haa. how cool is it when your class wins the overall champion for the upper sec level? haa. not boasting, but yeah, proud of my new class.
congratulations to those who made all these come true. it wouldn't happen if not without you guys.
haa. jinghan was just telling me that the photo that she took with me, just the shadows, got selected by her photography trainer. haa
congratulations to those who made all these come true. it wouldn't happen if not without you guys.
haa. jinghan was just telling me that the photo that she took with me, just the shadows, got selected by her photography trainer. haa
ain't that cool? haa. my flat-top can be seen clearly. haa
TMR'S GOOD FRIDAY!
btw, i'm really sick of explaining things of which people assumed about me. seriously, i'm really sick of it. i shall not fight my way anymore. i've said the truth, it's up to you whether to believe or not.
posted by Rod @ 7:39 PM,
only until today that i've realised how near paya lebar is from tk. although i know that paya lebar's also one of the nearest mrt stn from tk, i didn't know that it's within walking distance. haa next time i can take that route home when i'm feeling moody and needs to be alone.
hope i was of some help to you, yah jing han?
nth much of any happy happenings so far. but happy ones are that 3C are into the finals of tmr's games for almost all the games except for soccer and netball.
people are getting sick easily nowadays. being overworked and the stress that we faced. amalina's not in school for about 2 weeks. heard that she's really very sick to the extent that she vomitted blood. heyy, the whole of 3C is there for you. get well soon!
there's also someone that i would like to mention. but i won't say the name otherwise it will create a uproar of comments from other people. get well soon! take good care of yourself, especially now that exams are near.
it's really weird sometimes about how girls take pictures. normally what guys will do is to just take a simple photo which everyone's faces and body could be seen in the picture, depending on the environment and so on. but girls are diffirent. they take pictures of their shoes, toes, and you know, other stuff like putting their fingers together and form a star.
btw, i really feel cheated. i got cheated of my $9. a shirt with just an added collar and some black colour at the side of the shirt. and the back of it is the 50th anniversary logo. what's that? that ain't much difference from the current pe t-shirt. thinking that the shirt would be of some special and appealing design to the school's population, they have failed us.
seriously, if mr singh was the one who designed this 50th anniversary t-shirt, he deserves a good whacking from all of us. he can't design a proper cohort camp shirt, student leaders' shirt. and now this. the collar makes it look like more of a casual shirt rather than a pe shirt.
posted by Rod @ 7:19 PM,
My Roots Are Here
I was only able to attend part of the sy rogers's seminar. he's really a good speaker and pastor and definitely a great living testimony of the power and the love of God. although I was unable to attend the rest, there's audio sermons as well. haa. that's the advantage of the advancement of technology. anyway, went out for dinner with my family and my father talked about my future. he wants me
to take my basic highway theory test next year, which he claimed that I'm able to sit for it when I'm 16, but my mum said 18. and then during poly I'm to get my driving license before entering the army.
if you don't know, my father has already planned my life on how it should be. I'll just illustrate a picture in your mind on how it's like.
1. I'll most likely be going to a polytechnic after my O's, and i'll be doing Electrical and Electronics Engineering a.k.a EEE.
2. After that, I'll be sent overseas like Australia ( he only mentioned this ) to get an engineering degree.
the moment he stated pt no. 2, my heart just sank. and i told myself this " that's nvr gonna happen " It's not that I don't believe in myself that I'm able to succeed in life till that stage of going overseas to study, it's the personal matters that I'm refering to.
my relatives, specifically my uncle, has asked me the same question before. " Are you considering to go overseas to study? " my firm answer was and will forever be a " NO ".
some people will think that, " ahh! you must be crazy! your parents offer you the opportunity to study overseas and yet you are thinking negatively about it?! there's smth wrong with you! "
well, sad to disappoint people who think that way but I'm firm with myself that I won't be going. here's why:
1. Emotional Aspect : Living on this island which is a dot on the world map, I've grown to have feelings for it. it's not that I'm so patriotic, cause seriously at the age of 15 I don't really care about the General Election. but what I'm refering to is the education process. I made friends throughout my whole education process. well, of course it has not ended yet.
but of course, I will miss them if I go. take this for an example : I was suppose to go on a so-called holiday with my parents, to Malaysia, about a week or so. but I stood my stand clearly that I will not be going. clear-cut enough, I didn't go. one reason was because of church.
2. Church Aspect : If I ever leave this country, I've actually uprooted myself from church. my roots have just started growing, like 5 months plus. leaving s'pore for education will be like more than 4 years later. what will happen during that 4 and more years? my roots will grow longer and firmer, holding onto the ground so tight that my Hurrican Katrina hit my spot, man, my tree will still be standing tall.
if that's the case, which will be, I won't bear to leave. so what's there's another church in Australia? my roots started growing in Heart of God Church, it will forever be growing there. I would be active in ministry then. how am I able to leave just like that?
3. Friendship Aspect : Like what I said earlier, I've made friends throughout my whole life. so how am I able to leave them? Esp. secondart school friends and church friends. almost everyone of them made a difference in my life, may it be big or small, they've made a difference. memories are stored in my mind and carved on my heart. I'm a man who doesn't forget my roots.
have you ever wondered, when we write autograph books in primary school, at the end of what we had written, almost everyone will write the same thing, " Friends Forever " ? and look what happens when everyone goes to sec sch. we lose contact with most of them, not all but still in contact with some. that's gonna apply to sec sch as well. after that everyone will be either going poly or jc, and then each of them will have their own life. that's why I've been trying my best to build friendship steady and strong. inviting friends to church because no matter what happens, I'll see them every sunday. I go to church not entirely because of friends, it's mainly because of God. I love and want Him more than anything else and He's my Creater and Savior. and everyone should have give themselves a chance for a reconcilation with their Father in Heaven.
but above all these, if God wants me to go, I'll obey and follow his instructions He has for me. if that's my intended destiny, I'll go. people will say " come on, think positively! you won't know until you've tried! " this is what i will tell you. The grass may not always be greener on the other side.
look at the US. every family has their own gun. the purpose of protecting themselves. I mean, yeah, it's kinda of cool if you have a gun with you in s'pore, esp to that point where everyone has one. but of course it won't be safe then. haa. everyone will be playing with their guns instead of the computers at the starting. haa. meddling with bullets.
some of you may be able to give me advantages of going overseas to study. but the key answer to it will be from God.
okay, enough of serious stuff, let's switch to smth funny about this topic.
Food Aspect : As yoou know, Australia is an angmoh country. so when you walk around, don't you ever expect to find food like wanton mee or cai tou kueh on the streets or in food courts, except in China Town. the funny part is that almost in all angmoh countries, there will always be a China Town. you won't find things like ice kacang, nasi lemakand laksa. it's a trend you see among the connection with food in s'pore and food in angmoh countries.
tourists come to singapore partly because of the food, cause it's a multi-racial country, you have a large variety of food to choose from. angmoh comes here, taste the balachan, first time " taboleh tahan " then the next day and the following days he comes back for more. there's so much variety of food that some angmohs stay here because of it.
on the other hand, s'poreans go there and find themselves needing to head down to the China Town there or else they will die. if not you will be like eating hamburgers for 3 meals day. could you imagine if I were to study there and my breakfast is an egg with 2 sausages, my lunch is Mac's Big Mac and my dinner is Burger King's BK Chicken Sandwhich? man, I also taboleh tahan arh! that shows how boring angmoh countries can be.
posted by Rod @ 11:50 PM,
haa. now i'm blogging on the sch's tablet pc. isn't really that hard to type but i still prefer my own desktop keyboard. the keys sink in much deeper. when typing on the tablet you are like pushing your fingers, forcing your way in into something.
i've just realised thaat jinghan actually had her password script prompt linked to my blog. so that means if anyone who can't figure out her password they'll be linked here. haa. i don't have the time to crack it but i will when i do. at first i thought there was smth wrong with the tablet pc, but only when i operated my desktop then i realised so.
i will post up pics of the tablet pc only during the weekend. don't really have much time now. everyday's full of work and tests the next day. sigh..
posted by Rod @ 6:44 PM,
haa. today's the sport's carnival prelimary rounds. yeah, as usual it's raining so it has to be postponed. 0-0 and 0-0.. how's that score? the goal post is so freaking small that it's actually almost impossible to score. except for some class which they did. i guess it's because of a mistake by the linesman.
so cause of the rain, had to go home and this was what amirul and me found :
two cute kittens. AWWWWW!
AREN'T THEY CUTE?! haa. many other people like sabrina and jen were also there and they saw them. haa everyone who saw them went gaga and " AWWWW. SO CUTE! " haa. how i wish that it would rain everyday so i can see both of the kittens every other day.
and just a clarification, being praised by wang lao tou isn't anything. i still hate her in a way. but she isn't as bad as the AG1 teacher. haa. she's much more worse.
and just an addition to the previous post, the Marines under training had to give their rifles a feminine name. haa. wonder what would i call my own rifle when i'm in the army...
posted by Rod @ 5:08 PM,
haa. i came across this DVD at home called Full Metal Jacket.
not sure if any of you guys seen it before. it's basically a movie about the Vietnam War. which US was invovled. haa. then there were scenes of Marines under training, but in the oldern times. the Vietnam War was so long ago.
haa. the movie's quite nice and realistic about war. and i learnt many things in the army life. i've a prayer of what the Marines prayed with their rifles.
"This is my rifle,
There are many like it,
but this one is mine.
My rifle is my best friend.
It is my life.
I must master it,
as I must master my life.
Without me,
my rifle is useless.
Without my rifle,
I am useless.
I must fire my rifle true.
I must shoot straighter than my enemy,
who is trying to kill me.
I must shoot him before he shoots me.
I will.
Before God I swear this creed.
My rifle and myself are defenders of my country.
We are the masters of our enemy.
We are the saviors of my life.
So be it..
..until there is no enemy, but peace.
Amen. "
what do you guys think about this prayer? the movie is adapted from a real story can recount from a real Marine.
haa. taking revenge is also protrayed in the movie. haa. as in when a recruit gets the whole platoon into trouble over repeated times, the others will gang up against that recruit. by wrapping a bar of soap in a cloth and when the lights are out, someone would cover that recruits mouth and body so that he would not be able to retaliate, and then everyone would whack that guy with the bar of soap. don't look down on what the bar of soap can do, it's really painful.
know that song starting with " I don't know that i've been told" ?
there are many versions which were sung in that movie.. here's one of them:
"I don't want no teenage queen,
I just want my M-14!
If i die in combat zone,
box me up and ship me home!
Pin my medals upon my chest,
Tell my mum I've done my best! "
and in the army will be a life experience, the first time you will ever hear the most number of vulgarities hurled out of the mouth in your entire life.
here's a song about war. click here. people like amirul have heard this song before. it's sure nice.
sometimes guys just let their emotions take over their everything, including their focus and their mind. but if they are able to accept the fact and move on, i don't see why they have to get depressed over some things.
haa. i like the word " sentimental "
posted by Rod @ 5:42 PM,
