Impartation
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
Time With God today in church has really brought me up to another level of thinking.
As Pastor shared his heart for church and began to share more about his life, it's really a loud wow, of how Pastors lead their lives, very much like us of how we serve them and the church, is really like how they serve Pastor Kong, just that at a much higher level.
It's really an eye-opener of how Pastors pay attention to small details and are able to see things from different perspective and switch from another from a Pastors level to our level, coming down to our level to talk to us.
I always have doubts in my life and God never fails to reveal to me the answers. It might take time and most of the time answers do not come immediately right after I've asked them, but God chooses to reveal them to me in a way that I cherish the answers even more and at the time when I'm the most receptive and I'm open in the spirit.
How God has put me into TP, how He has arranged for me to go through DPA and all those interviews and get into the course Mechatronics, I've always asked myself and Him the reason of that. Just to share with you, it's only weeks back where I visited Temasek Poly's website and checked out the page for the cut-off points of various courses; and the interesting thing (I don't know if I should be glad or feeling wasted) is that the cut-off point for my course is 24, which makes no sense for me to opt that course for DPA cause I'm very sure I can easily get in that course when I get back my results.
I'm so sure that many of your reactions would be like, "Ah, that's so wasted. You should of opt for another course." However, the problem is I didn't know my course cut-off point until a few weeks back and when I was suppose to apply for DPA, the cut-off points were not being posted on any of the Poly's website, so there's absolutely no way that it could have made known to me that the course that I opted for is that "lousy", in that sense.
I finally know the reason of why God arranged this for me, like how God has put me into TK. An opportunity for me to grab; a window of Heaven opened for my salvation. And I'm sure that now being posted to TP, I'm in to do greater things for Him.
This will be one of those times where God will arrange things for me in my life which I don't see the purpose in it, but I'm going to humble myself and pray, that my spirit will be open for revelation regarding it in the future. And with an answer, "No wonder..."
I miss those times in the Chem lab where we'll get soot while doing experiments involving flame and in order to get rid of those soot fast cause Mrs Tan never fails to release us late for recess. Old school method: All nitrates are soluble, therefore we pour nitric acid down like there's no tomorrow and scrub them off. Ah, I will never be able to enjoy the thrill of what Leon Koh did, calling the Fire Department reporting that the school's chem lab and Kee Hoe was on fire.
School's gonna start on the 18th for me and I'm so not ready. TP sent me a letter inviting me to join their Open House when I'm already enrolled into the school and so my reaction was, What for?
I'm gonna shop for clothes, shop for proper sandles and shorts for Poly next year. Haha, one thing good about Poly is that I need not allow my legs to be kept covered by material especially in a hot weather which S'pore is always having. Whee, my leg hairs gonna grow even more due to air circulation and I'm still not going to shave them off, neither am I going to wax my legs. Leg hair is Men's prized procession.
Labels: Daily rant, Revelation
posted by Rod @ 10:00 PM,
Christmas!
Sunday, December 23, 2007
" We wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year! "
Haha, early Merry Christmas to you guys and my church celebrated early this year cause the 25th is on a Tuesday so service would be the weekend before that.
Haha, 2 more pictures with the CG people and those invited to come for service. Haha, it's really amazing how like the Westerns portray in films that there will always be a photo booth during Prom Night and yet Singapore doesn't have one most of the time, and yet during Christmas we have.
Isn't it amazing that everything is done by in-house people? Decorations by our very own Decor Ministry, lights by our own Lights Ministry and the photographs taken by our own Photography Ministry. Everything done by our in-house people. Haha, I'm living in an awesome awesome time with an awesome awesome church.
The elves are really cute! Haha, Christmas celebration this year was never like the other years, this year with a really big bang with all the activities we've organised and especially we have more space around the church to move and gather around, everything seems better now. Another worry, we will outgrow the place in no time; Singpost will soon no longer to hold us anymore and we will have to move to a bigger, bigger place. That would be another step towards having our own building with an auditorium under the stars and full of glass! Haha, I still remember every single detail of what Pastor shared.
The whole group of us just hung out at Marina Square's long stairs down and we basically owned that place. Oh my oh my, that's like only 2 zones together and we've totally utilised the whole place.
Time with God tomorrow till 12 and I'm still thinking on whether I should stay overnight or not. Heart of God Church has truly become my home.
I live in it, I sleep in it, I take care of it, I love it.
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 11:50 PM,
Distance
Friday, December 21, 2007
I have come home with a heavy heart.
Today is the day which I have come to realised one thing: The damage of distance in relationship can cause destruction and shatters the heart.
Ah, although it's something of like a sharing session of how each of our lives were, after all these things that you have shared with me really hit my heart. After all that you went through, all these time, I wasn't there. I said I would; I said that I would be there, but the fact that I didn't know the slightest about what happened made me feel very guilty.
The thought of how much you went through during this period was like slaps to my face, about I was alive and kickin' and yet I wasn't able to do anything for you and how I lived each day of my life as it was and yet on the other hand, you were going through so much and I didn't even asked you how you were doing and showered love and concern over you.
It has left me speechless, throughout the whole time. If you would have realised why I didn't speak or say much was because I didn't know how to respond. No matter how much I say I understand how you felt and what you went through, I can never do it cause it has never happened to me before and I will be a real liar to say truthfully that I do. That's the reason why I kept looking at you, but I didn't say much for I know whatever I say will never hide the pain, the agony that you suffered.
Allow me for at least the next 3 years of my life, allow me to see you through this time. It's really amazing how paths crossed each other and we're still in contact with each other. I feel indebted to you for all that you have done for me all these years and yet I've never really done anything much for you.
Allow me to see you through every single thing of your life. Good times or bad times, let me be there for you. I've never regretted a single moment that I've spent with you and those times are still clearly in my mind. It seems like yesterday which I've meet you for the first time, talked to you for the first time and became part of your life. I've never regretted knowing you and it's a blessing actually, to be able to know someone like you.
Allow me to do so.
Yes, you.
Labels: Moments
posted by Rod @ 11:30 PM,
Logic
Monday, December 17, 2007
Haha, just had a fun day just hanging out and fellowshipping with the Ops people as well as choir. Our own hoGc version of the song "I Will Follow Him" has already taken form and we'll be having an audition with Pastors this Wednesday. Haha, it's really amazing when you listen to God when He speaks to you and just doing what He told you to do, you will never look back and regret taking that step of faith. God is amazing, Amen.
Haha, the movie The Warlord is kind of messy, when it comes to the storyline, (spoilers), it's about this guy (Jet Li) a general who lost a battle because his allies just stood there and watch them battle and not lending a helping hand. He met 2 other bandits and then they become blood brothers, taking the blood oath, swearing that although they're birthed differently, but they will die similarly. And also, elimination will take place to whatever or whoever threatens the ties of the blood brothers.
So basically, the whole movie is about 3 men who came from different background coming together, and then working their way up from scratch as normal soldiers to becoming generals and winning battles. All the violence and stuff aside, all 3 of them die in the end and there's so much politics and complexity in the whole storyline that you just want to give up understanding it halfway.
I wonder how this kind of film could be nominated for global film awards and yet the Americans do not understand the show but by only through subtitles. All of them like the violence and gore, why am I not surprised..
Christmas is coming in a few days time and wow, a year has passed just like that.
If only I had more time..
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 11:59 PM,
New Ground
Sunday, December 16, 2007
A revelation about life every single night as I go through a whole day.
Blogging is about typing down thoughts but I hope that when one fine day I start reading my archives, I will see how much I've grown in terms of thinking and perspective.
A lack of communication results in a breakdown in a friendship/relationship. How true. Many people are working now and yeah, no longer talked like everyone used to and seriously things are starting to feel weird for me.
Not being critical nor skeptical, but there are all kinds of people in this world and who am I to judge them with what I know? There is only a limit of things I can say and do, but in the end it will be them who make the decisions. I can only be there to give advice and comments.
The power of the media is real great to the extent that it enhances your imagination; Some things could be as simple as it is but yet with the influence of the media, you will begin to think of different kinds of outcomes for that particular situation, sometimes creating unnecessary fear and worry.
I'm a victim of the media. But again, who am I to judge those people? They are victims of media too, like shows of how girls are tricked into going out and then taken advantage of, but really, in some cases things do not happen the way how the media has portrayed it to us.
Above all these things, all I can say is: Exercise caution.
Deuteronomy 3:22
22 You must not fear them, for the LORD your God Himself fights for you.
How true, how true. Know no fear, for the Lord fights my battles for me. Throughout these few weeks it has become real clear to me of how important prayer is and how it really springs you forward to handle things in life better, now with prayer, you incorporate faith and boldness into what you do, and results in gaining new ground; conquering obstacles.
Labels: Revelation
posted by Rod @ 12:54 AM,
Responsibilty
Saturday, December 15, 2007
It's gonna be 10 long days and in the meantime, I will be a lonely person on MSN. Haha, it has left me no meaning in coming online for the next 10 days because everyone's working and I won't really have much time too.
Notice the time which the post is posted: It shows my life at the present now. Sleeping at odd timings even though school for me will be starting soon. Haha, so many people have been posted to MJ but they will still all start lessons earlier than me. So congrats to those who have been posted to the school of their choice. All the best to you people.
I haven't been updating cause I didn't have the time to, VBS was just a blast and overwhelming for me, but I've learned how to stretch myself and enlarge my capacity. Waking up at 6:30 and only sleeping around 12 for 6 days. That's like going to school and staying late in the COE just to complete the D&T Folio. Haha, those old times.
My life just seems to get more exciting as time passes by. Going up levels in Sound and just helping out in Ops, meeting new people and knowing them better. Haha, I just can't wait for '08 to arrive, not because there will be school, but rather participating in what God's going to do.
It is another 2 weeks or so where the '08 will be ushered in and bam, a new chapter, a new year. Seriously, after PSLE everyone wrote on cards or class photos, FF (Friends Forever). How true is that when you think back now? I don't think anyone has done that now cause they've realised that it's not gonna be true either. I do not want my "Goodbye" to last for the rest of my life. Goodbyes are never easy.
Secondary school, everyone grows older, understands and sees things better. People come and go, but I don't wish to see it happen in my case. As I stood there, sitting in my chair and watching the sun rise, I was on the com the whole night and just spending a night chatting online with her made me understand something: There are people out there who really wants to know what their purpose living on earth is and is willing to go through all cost to find it.
Non-believers of the Word will need to find their own dreams in order to sustain them or else they won't be able to lead a good life cause it will be a meaningless one. On the other hand, believers who have found their destiny in God seems to take things easier in the sense that they need not search for their purpose cause we have already found it.
Would you want to spend your whole life looking, in search of your purpose or do you want to make a move now and save all that trouble?
Learning about the End Times stirred fear in my heart. God is always full of grace and mercy, but when it comes to the matter, the issue of believing or not becomes so clearly important. To have eternal life in Heaven or be banished to the Lake of Fire? I'm responsible for the lives of those around me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Haha, I don't usually listen to James Blunt but I have to say that this song is lyrical and really touching. I was just sitting in the castle, attending Worship Prac and Resonance was just practicing How Great Is Our God and apparently, they did an improvisation to the intro for the Acoustic Guit and it sounded like Goodbye My Lover.
It just got me thinking about the song and I nearly burnt my finger while soldering wires. Haha, nice lyrical song but sang by a not so good singer. Haha, imagine the song being sung by a guy with a bassy voice, it will sound better.
Just on a side note, Chipmunk videos are funny. (:
Labels: Daily rant
posted by Rod @ 2:06 AM,
