today is like the saddest and most heartbreaking day of my life.. haa. no larrh. just kidding.
went bowling with 8 others.. then i was like the only one being owned. off form for the 1st and last game. then 2nd game was quite okay. but that can't change the fact that i was owned. don't know what's wrong with me nowadays..
amirul was like cursing me cause his pts were above me and was quite close to each other, so he didn't wish to see me catch up or go ahead of him. haa then rachel joan and charles were like, so consistent and all.. should have seen yen sin the gay-ass bowl. i mean, i don't have any grudge against him because he's gay or smth.. but the way he bowled is damn bloody funny.
now i see maths i don't feel like doing already.. sian larrh. now like at home got nth to. want to go youth camp and kill time, but scared parents don't allow.
since i have nth to do.. i just talk about the what the church talked about yesterday..
it was all about commitment..
if you have no commitment, nth great happens.. commitment is all about putting your heart and soul to acheive something that you want.. bu if you do not have that.. nth great will happen..
commitment is smth which is good and bad. with commitment, something great will happen. but there is a cost of commitment and it is nvr convenient.
and you should nvr be a man of comprimise.. and nvr make excuses when a matter is totally your fault and yet you deny it..
here's one example :
you are late for a lesson and you told the teacher that you were caught in a traffic jam. and it's tue that it really happened. and you blamed the traffic jam for resulting in you being late for a lesson. but have you ever thought that it's your fault?. you could have come out of hse earlier to catch the earlier bus. you knew that at that time would be peak hour and yet you took the much later bus. and you blamed the traffic. when actually, you are the one who is to be blamed.
commitment also takes you to places. new levels of your life cause you would have acheived something. as in experience and all. and nth affects your life more than what commitment will. love also comes with commitment. if you do not have a commitment in your life, you will be like drifting away in the sea aimlessly and do not know where's the shore and which direction to swim to.
and also, be a transparent person. and be frank of how you feel. that's the most important thing b/w couples. if you bottle up your feelings and nvr be frank. there will be doubt b/w partners for each other then suspicion will then come along. that's how marriage for relationship problems come about. they are not frank about their feelings and they are not transparent to each other.
posted by Rod @ 5:06 PM,
see what happens when you don't treasure your friends?.
i didn't even got the chance to say bon voyage.
only got to noe yesterday that when i was in sch.. damn she's already on the plane to beijing.
now monday we won't have a full class again.
posted by Rod @ 9:55 AM,
tk is damn cheapskate larrh. although got medals for interlcass already, the problem now lies with the structure of the building.
it's like.. omfg. there is a leak on the audi's ceiling. got waterfall from the aricon hole larrh. at fist was only one hole, but the water was rushing damn fast. then afther that the hole beside the one started leaking. so gort two. then after gort two other more started leaking as well. so in the end gort four leaking.
at first you can hear the water rushing just right above you, coz seating at the far back, so nearest to the ceiling. haa. if see from side view, can see two small dents from the roof. damn cheapskate larrh. everyone was like wah lao, half-way teaching then you see " waterfall ".
haa. expected a black-out.
posted by Rod @ 4:28 PM,
today can be said as a day which had a greatest impact on my life. went to church with sabrina and her friends. made a couple of new friends also. i didn't know that going to church is such a fun thing as this is the second time for me going to church.
the first time was when i went to jakarta for a " holiday ". the church people there, none of them i knew and most of them were adults. so i did not get to enjoy and feel the sense of belonging in church. but now, my mindset and thoughts have changed. all thanx to sabrina. A REALLY BIG THANK YOU! =)
the pastor's words really made a very great impact on me.
- the heart is a believing machine.
- listen and believe with your heart.
- do what your heart tells you and not your brain.
these words may seem simple and easy to understand, but they have a certain meaning to it. you love someone with all your heart, and not your brains right?.
the pastor also talked about insecurity. people who feel insecure are competitive and they do not know that they themselves have a value. you shouldn't let people or a particular system put a price tag on you. people like poh heng, those only know how to talk big and compare, are one example of people who are insecure.
cause if you feel secure, you know what's the value in you and you are contented with it. everyone is unique. and this so called value is actually called " intrinsic value ".
Don't let people ; systems or circumstances influence your estimation of your value.
the pastor then took an example of a diver, forgot his name. he won like alot of championships and as you know, diving is a very pressurising sport. just by the power of 1 sec can change the whole situation. then the reporter asked him : " what has made you succeed?. how did you manage to win so many championships?. "
guess how did he reply.. he said : " everytime before i lift myself from the board and taking a jump, i tell myself that, even if i blow my dive, my mother still loves me. "
what does this mean?. it means that even though you may be ugly, stupid, short or even having a pimplish face and everyone avoids you and leaves you in a corner to rot, you still have our parents who loves us the most. our parents gave us life. and God also loves us for who we are.
although there might be times when we screw our lives up and feel like giving up. God is there for us. He is there for us as we take our every step in our lives.
although is might be the second time i'm in church. i have indeed learnt alot.
posted by Rod @ 9:55 PM,
went bowling with nick, kitson, faris, rach and joan at east coast. the wtf group kena owned. haa. rach, new hobby is bowling. haa. i off-form all the while. except for the 2nd game.
now got people say that i pms for no reason. have meh?. i beg to differ.
now i'm so confused as which combination i'm going. it's like i have no other choice, i even have to take a gamble to get into double science where are there are only 3 classes offering that.
i guess i'll be doing computer studies, IT related stuff or engineering in poly. so do D&T larrh. can get into NTU or NUS if got engineering background. looks like my future has already been planned well already. heard that mrs khairul was also an engineer once. maybe i may check things up with her. haa. it's a guys' dominated thing.
i suck in my humanities.
posted by Rod @ 11:42 PM,
now everyday seems to bored to me. haa. only dun feel that way when i game though.
now i've been thinking about something. exams are over is a good thing, i mean there will be freedom.. esp. if it's final year, there's nth for you to study, unless you want to study next years work or for GCE O' level. i think leon would have started studying for that already, yeah. no doubt about that.
but there are cons and backfire when exams are over.. people start worrying if whether they do well, pass with flying colours, whether they failed or passed a particular paper, how would this exam affect the overall score and so on.. exams are over doesn't really mean a good thing though.
i have been certified and confirmed by amirul that i'm suffering from this disease called the " Verbal Diarrhoea ". and i'm in the second stage of it. hmmm. let's see what is the meaning of it :
" The second stage is more violent and involves the person being talkative as well as being a disruption and nusicance in class, largely disruptive and needs to crack a joke at anytime and this can happen anytime. It doesn't even matter that he/she is in a cliche, there is only one thing on this person's mind-Talk. "
this is the explaination that he provided. sounds kinda of cool that i'm suffering from smth which i have no clue about.
can't imagine what would it be like if the interview were to really take place. two people facing one and start firing questions. haa. i mean, must involve alot of consideration of the questions as the thing is about representing the class. haa. i would love to see the end-results of the whole thing. it would be flawless.
posted by Rod @ 10:25 PM,
went out today again. but wasn't as much fun as yesterday though. wanted to play lan but most of the lan shops have that stupid rule of those under 16 can't enter during school days except after 6.30. wtf. then in the end went to charles's hse void deck to play soccer.
sent out e-mails regarding the class newsletter. peeps of 2E, please contribute something so that we can make this the last and the best newsletter of all!. had a couple of ideas like i stated so in the e-mail. and had one more which terence and me thought of but didn't state so coz it was after i sent it. you peeps will get to know sooner or later.
changed my blogskin. haa. animated and it looks cool. no more darkness. haa. much more organised also.
posted by Rod @ 9:51 PM,
haa. it's freedom!.
today went out with yq, mengyee, nicholas, charles and kitson to watch Dukes Of Hazzard.. my my, jessica simpson is really hot. it's nort that i'm perversed or smth. i mean, that's a fact that even girls can't deny. haa. then the other parts were very funny which nvr failed to make me laugh.
must watch Dukes of Hazzard, it's damn freaking funny. dun noe which part should i elaborate. but you can't possibly miss it!
kinda wasted that Duece Bigalow the European Gigalo and the 40 year old virgin is M18. if not we would definitely watch it. after that went to marina bay there to bowl. fun too. just wanna make things clear. saying out someone's name when bowling and if it happens to be a strike or a spare, that doesn't mean that that person means smth. it's a coincidence. i was using an 8 pounds bowling ball and it was light for me that's why i managed to get those scores. had nth to do with anything, i swear. i've already given up on her, come on..
then we played the table soccer, the one with the handles at the side that kind. haa. played for quite a while. was fun also. didn't noe that going out with guys together could be that fun. coz girls dun play that and arcade. haa. played the racing car and some shooting games. it's cool, even though it's a school day. the people at the bowling alley didn't care. haa. what's more the price is the same.
just finish playing a couple of rounds of cs. now updating and i'll play grand theft auto : san andreas. man i love this freedom and i'll be going to enjoy ot for a long time.
TKSS bazzar will be coming soon and being the AMD of it, i mean, the whole commitee will be busy over it for quite some time. but i'm looking forward to it though, even though it's car washing that i'm doing. but i'm doing before the actual day, means i would be free to stroll around on the actual day. haa. this is cool.
i guess i'm gonna sleep quite late tonight, will either play com or watch till late. I'M FREE!!
posted by Rod @ 8:45 PM,
i'm so fucking happy that there are only 3 days left to the end of the exams. freedom will be ours when the last day comes. maths was fucked up today. couldnt finish paper 1 but paper 2 was easy.
i'm gonna be so fucking high after the exams. i don't know why i'm so vulgar these days. it seems that there is no point keeping my vulgar words to myself anymore. i shall said it so fucking loud. dun't deny me this cause i wasn't like that in the past. have to let it all out.
i can turn crazy if i bottle things up though. trying to change the way i am now. i mean, people like russell peters and ediie murphy do say words like fuck when they are doing a comedy.
things like, " i ain't no bitch mother fucker " you hear them very often.
i just seem to be so light-hearted now. happy-go-lucky kind. i did make the right choice.
happy gilmore sure rocks. damn fucking funny. but the bad part was the vulgar words all censored.
now i know why people said that you changed after the incident, it's unbelievable. i once thought you were innocent and pure.. now i know the truth behind all these. being influenced just like that. if one day i have to whup his ass and you interfere, i'll do the same to you. you better watch what you do. everything's changing now. now i know why people say stuff like that
don't think he's tall and he's learning some kicks and stuff and you hide behind him, like some fucking armour. i'll break that armour with my bare hands and i swear fuck him up. i ain't no bitch mother-fucker. it's not that i'm jealous. he's too fucking sensitive to fucking things that his friend did that was so fucking normal and demands apologies time and time again. and you got angry with that friend because you wif him. what the fuck is wrong with you?.
i'm so fucking pissed right now after knowing it and i'm so fucking disappointed in you. it's gonna be the same scenerio of how a S.W.A.T team will fuck a guy who is unarmed and in his undies up.
posted by Rod @ 5:22 PM,
haa. was suppose to go to changi airport for the history thing. but then didn't go coz had tuition.
after reading post by amirul on what happened there, it seemed lyk those who were there really had great fun?. i'm lyk half-regret and half-happy that i didn't go. dun noe why i feel this way also.
i'm still mugging lyk a bloody retard.. good luck for yor exams guys out there! =)
went to Funan yesterday. Sportslink has this 70% off moving out sale and then the other shops were having discounts as well. but the whole place had limited things and the price was high. went there but didn't get what i wanted.
McAfee Viruscan 2006 was lyk $50 plus at Funan while over at Sim Lim Square.. gort some of the shops sell it as $30 plus. what'smore, it's original.
probably end here. nth much to say about my lyfe coz nth much happened and all i can think of now is exams.
posted by Rod @ 9:39 AM,
