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haa. S.O.W was totally awesome. although first lesson. handle wires and putting ends into the socket and playing with the mixer.

tough and pressurising job. but cool. haa. should be able to be part of the Sound Ministry by next year. i''m looking forward to seeing myself carrying a walkie-talkie seating at the front row. haa. just joking.

tmr is BIG DAY!

posted by Rod @ 7:38 PM,

just blogging to say that the streaming is like crap..

i really need some time off.

posted by Rod @ 1:53 AM,

today's VBS was very impacting and i learnt alot of new things. probably share them when the whole course is over.

blogging now cause i need a place to pour out my thoughts in my heart tight now.

every teenager always faces quarells with parents and so on. and i actually admit that i lied to my mum, not just once, twice, thrice but many times. it's not that i like doing it. it's that i have been pushed to the wall and have no other solutions that's why i resort to lying.

now my mum has found out that i went for VBS. forgot to take out the prayer pledge card out of my pocket and when my mum was about to wash my shirt she checked the pocket. so now i have no choice but to tell the truth. i mean, the evidence is already there in her hands, what good will it do to me if i continue lying?

maybe C5 people will know why is this so. so for the benefit of those who don't : my mum sort of objects me going to church. it's not that she doesn't like church or she's an anti-christian. it's that she thinks going to church is a complete waste of time and i could rather be using the time that i spent for sunday service to be at home doing assesment books.

i'm like come on larrh. it's the holidays. give me a break. she wants me to do about 1-2 comprehensions a week and now also vocab exercises in the assesment book. so what's the cause of this problem?.

it's that she thinks my english is poor. i mean, come on larrh. i'm not going to be a reporter or a lawyer or something that i have to master perfect english. we are now living in an environment of singlish. i'm not one of those english pro who reads a book everyday and watch BBC news.

i've been sent for english tuition before. that was last year. but i pon almost every lesson. she can't put herself in my shoes and look at things my perspective. each lesson is 2 hrs and everytime you go there it's either a comprehension and composition. so i thought : okay, maybe just give it a try. no harm trying right?.

so at the end of the day, i learn NTH new!

english it's not like maths and science. maths and science, they have theory and concepts. so when you grab hold of the both of them, you are able to excel in these two subjects. that's why you practise and study so hard for maths and science because the facts and formula are all there. it's just how you apply and use it.

you can't study for english. it's not as if you are told what you will be tested on eg. the teacher will tell you what passage will come out for the compre part of the exam. then you read and read and practise on that passage itself.

and she also thinks that going to church is also a waste of money. what rubbish is that?. giving offerings are just part of being a christian. and now she's going to cut my allowance so that i won't have enough money for my needs. cut larrh. for all i care. i'm still going to church.

and now with all that, she says she's going to get a new lock and lock me out of the house. i mean, you can try it if you want to larrh. when i accepted Christ into my life, i was already and i'm still already ready, to give up everything that i have for Him.

i may lose a place to stay in, i might have to sleep in parks, HDB void decks, car parks. lose my hp, can't play com, can't chat on msn, can't blog, can't communicate will friends at all. i might become dirty and smelly, sleeping in the streets. i would be wearing torn clothes.

so what if all that really happens?. i will still pray and be faithful to Him. i will still do my QT. somehow i might not be in good shape to attend church. but there's still Him living in my heart.

posted by Rod @ 10:43 PM,

it's just hours away form my first VBS. haa. i'm so excited. will update when i get back from that i guess. that's if i have time and i'm not tired

btw 2E people. recieved an e-mail from syafiq that there's gonna be a bbq this coming saturday. so do try to find time and make it. i guess that's the last time we're gonna gather as a whole class.

but there are some missing people as usual. people flying to other countries. so all we can grab and reach out are those still here. haa.

posted by Rod @ 8:13 AM,

haa. now i am at home blasting Hillsongs's music through my speakers! haa.

i'm on fire for YOU.

it has rained the whole morning and i'm still waiting for it to stop so that i can go head for the polyclinic to remove my dressing.

the weather is just so cooling that i slept till 12 and i haven't had my lunch.

but i'm still on fire for YOU. haa

i've just realised that some things in my heart, i'm unable to put them down. well, of course they aren't happy memories. haa. if they are i would still be unable to put them down ; but remember them for the rest of my life.

they are some things that i still regret doing and not doing. but come on, it's the past. that's what i will tell myself and that's what HE told me in my heart. sometimes in life you always feel like turning back and looking at things in the past. that's what most people will do.

but these people, think carefully. how's that going to help you in your path of going, moving and striving forward?. there will be many fantastic and great things ahead of you. it's whether are you willing to put down those things and then move forward. it's entirely your decision. but just to say, everyone's life isn't perfect. so you can expect your life to be fabulous every single minute and second.

there's one saying of the chinese but i interpret here : " the old doesn't leave / go, the new won't come " sorry if my interpretation is off the scale. but i completely agree with this. God has pre-planned our life for us. but you have the right to choose the path that you want to go.

some people might think that their life isn't what they want it to be. some people might think that they're born to sin and do evil. it isn't true at all. it's the way and perspective that you see your life is that causes you to think that way and therefore it will be true. if you think your life isn't what you want it to be, you will feel tired of living and in the end you might get depressed or smth. your mind is a very powerful object. you will act according to what your mind tells you.

but it's rubbish. listen to what your heart tells you. your mind is just a centre of justification. to justify whether it's a correct or wrong thing to do. but of course this applies if you are doing something correct.

now it's people who sets that target to change themselves. what i mean is the change of the mind eg. attitude and so on and not physical and appearance changes. some people want to change and they did, but there are some who wants to but didn't. either it's because they don't have the heart and determination to do so pr they think they can't.

change is not a process. it's a decision. if you think you really want to change, you have to decide and nvr to regret making that decision. and most of all you have to put your heart and soul into it. i can say that i want to change, but in the end there's no action taken or a least of repentance at all and the heart doesn't have the will to change. what is that?. that is called changing at all. that's called cheating yourself.

i'm just typing it off my mind. don't know why also. maybe because of the rain which got me thinking. haa

posted by Rod @ 12:54 PM,

posted by Rod @ 7:54 PM,

WCG 2005
Thursday, November 17, 2005

first on the list we have the Intel Wristband from the Intel Booth

now we have the Razer tatoo! =)

and when you have that tatoo, you will have this handphone strap as well!

so now my phone looks like this.

haa. there are actually quite alot of other freebies, but i didn't visit those booths. like Cool Master, they were giving out free pens and keychains. haa

so being a Razer fan myself, i got myself a :

a Razer Mantis Speed mouse pad!

there were actually two types of the Razer Mantis. one is Speed and the other is Control. for me i take Speed cause it's meant for high sensitivity gamers.

WCG 2005 will last till sunday and this is a perfect time to watch gamers from around the world play cause it's a live thing!

i will probably get the Razer Copperhead tmr. haa. see if i can collect all Razer mice.

Razer has also launched it's Razer Tarantula! =) it's the first keyboard that Razer has ever made. i'm going there tmr and see what's the next thing Razer is gonna launch. some examples are the Razer Boomslang.

btw, people out there, thanx for your concern about my leg cum the damn seashell thing. haa. my dressing could be removed this saturday. yet, i can move jump run and so on even with that dressing on. haa.

posted by Rod @ 8:36 PM,

God knew that it was going to rain today..

so he made me wear a pair of shoes!

posted by Rod @ 11:10 PM,

posted by Rod @ 5:55 PM,

today is like =.="

suppose to be out having fun.. but.. sorry C5 people who went to east coast today! =( wasted alot of your time. to purpose was to have fun. but my injury gave you all trouble instead. i feel very guilty. people like michelle hurt herself while getting the water and the trolley for me.. i feel so guilty larrh..

so the story of 14 November 2005 started like this :

we met outside marine parade library and then walked to east coast. because it was kind of early and most of us have not eaten, we decided to go to macs to have breakfast. so i have the Big Breakfast. what was fascinating i thought was that all others had ice milo for their drinks while i was the only one drinking tea. then after that wei rong bought a coffee. so after macs, we headed down to the bicycle shop. not to rent bikes but, to rollerblade. wells, this is my 2nd time having blades on and the first time was totally terrible. i had my blades on for about less than half-an-hr for the first time. wells, now, i learnt how to rollerblade!

so we bladed, chi wen and wei rong cycled all the way to coasta sand resorts there and took a rest. then decided to play at the water. so okay, i went along. haa. and i was kinda of totally wet. everyone was like screaming, shouting, splashing water at each other. then after a while, we saw eugene and alex over at one side standing on.. you know those chao big rock which you can climb and stand on?. so we went there too. so everyone climed up, after a while then came down.

okay, this is how the climax began.

when coming down into the water, i felt a sharp sting at the back of my foot. so natural instinct, raised it and check. there was this black thing under my skin and was like somehow embedded into my muscle. so was like damn pain larrh. salt water and a wound.
so went back to shore and then check out what it is. damn pain i can tell you. then everyone was debating what it was and how to take it out.

this is the part until the end that i really want to thank all of you. i mean, i felt this force in me that i really cannot explain and describe. you all prayed for me and were willing to go through it with me.

chiwen and michelle made trips to get water and help. michelle ended up having her cut at her leg and chiwen was like cycling up and down, getting a pair of tweezers, a nail clipper and the first aid box.. wei rong was trying to get the " stone " which we assumed it was, out of my leg and the others prayed and held me. i'm really touched and was on the verge of letting out tears.
decisions were made, we were to proceed to the marine parade polyclinic to seek medical help. michelle brought a trolley along and pushed me to the main road. really appreciate it. =)
chiwen, wei rong and jenn accompanied me through this very interesting journey. you will find out by reading more.

okay, so we went to the marine parade polyclinic. but actually it was closed as in no other patients could register until 1.45. so due to my seriousness of my condition, they let us in and i was brought into a room. i lied down on the bad and there were like more than 3 nurses in that room?. they asked me what happened, my condition and personal particulars and so on. so i told them what they wanted to know. then came this female doctor and when she saw my leg, she said that i have to be refered to changi general hospital for observation and the extraction of that " stone " in my leg. then she placed a cotton wool over and pasted with some plaster. there goes a watsed trip to the polyclinic, could have gone to the hospital straight.

okay, so when i reached there, i was refered to the A&E department. so even from the outside could see many people with " emergencies " . the place was packed then i had to sit on a wheel chiar. cannot walk or else pressure would be apllied on my leg and the " stone " would go in further.

so gave my referrence letter and then was told to wait at the waiting area. you know how long i waited?. more than 2 freaking hours?. and you know what?. that was only for some consultation asking about my condition and so on. i'm like, WTH?. for that two hours wei rong was with me until a few mins later chi wen took over his place. then after that damn consultation, i had to wait again!.

=.=" then i was like chatting with chi wen. then came this doctor and asked me to follow him.
btw, chiwen and wei rong, thanx for pushing me on the wheelchair. haa. =)

back to the topic, i was wheeled into the doctor's room by chiwen and he said that he doesn't know what that foriegn boday is which is in my flesh and i have to go for an X-ray to see. if it does not affect the other parts of my leg like the bone, it could be extracted. but if it hit or damaged the bone, he has to call a _________ surgeon to help him extract out. and then i had to go for an injection to prevent let's say, side-effects of an infection?.

so he pushed me to the X-ray room, with chi wen still following me, wells, she followed me wherever i went. so i had to take an X-ray. haa. it's very fun larrh. the X-ray. the doctor just placed my feet on top of a black plastic board and then there was a machine above me. there was even a crosshair from the machine. then the doctor operated the machine behind a wall. then there was a sound from the machine. then the X-ray was over!. this is so cool. i thought got beam of light or whatever.

so after the X-ray, i was wheeled out then have to wait for the film. so went i got it back, i looked, there wasn't anything at all. haa. couldn't even see anything, as in anything which is in my flesh. so then i had to take this injection. to prevent the infection. i mean the side-effects. the doctor then told me that this liqiud prevents locked jaw. because sometimes when a wound get's infected, the person would have a locked jaw.

so i then had to wait outside the operation theatre as the doctor had to prepare for the extraction of that thing. the doctor said that the foreign body wasn't that big and deep. so i was joking with chi wen outside, there's this small metal pole sticking out of the wheelchair and there is this plate which states the number. so i was just saying that there could be a racing competition in the hospital. haa. but with the wheelchair. haa. then you can see who's leading by looking at the plate. haa.

so in the operation theatre.. haiish. don't wanna talk about it. so i skip this part.

so after the whole thing, chiwen's dad pick the four of up to her hse. btw, thanx for the lift including back to my hse. went there to get my shoes.

haa. now i have to swallow a damn big pill, 3 times a day. haiish. so after all, my leg looks like :

btw, that " stone ", it's actually a damn small seashell. might post a pic of it when i'm free. haa

posted by Rod @ 7:57 PM,

went to sch in the morning to get my long pants and belt.

i'm sure that i will look weird haa. it's like twice the price of your shorts of your own size.

now i don't have to worry whether my pants will be loose. i have a belt. haa =)

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today's bible study we watched two videos. one is a sermone titled " But God " and the other is a conference held in europe.

maybe i'll talk about what pastor how said before the movie.

Romans 12 : 2
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transfered by the renewing of the mind. that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

this verse is actually telling you not to be guided blindly by other people and it's about peer pressure. it's like, if everyone arnd you has a stead, that doesn't mean you need to get or find one too. who cares of they have stead or a crush?. you don't need to get one in order to please them.

conformed : made like or of the same form : to comply : to obey

you don't need to what everyone in the world is doing to feel the sense of belonging. what differs you from other people is when you think in another way ; the renewing of the mind. your mind is a very powerful tool. it justifies your every action and if you lead your mind to thinking the wrong way, you will do the wrong things.

there are 3 stages of the will of God. the good, the acceptable and the perfect.

all Christians should aim to be in the perfect stage. let's take for an example, you have a stead. you are not sinning, but you are not in the perfect will of God. the bible didn't state that having a stead at this young age is a sin, but you are not in the perfect will of God. it is said that the correct age of when you get into a relationship is when you are matured and old enough, let's say maybe 18 and above.. or maybe 20 and above.

let's say you go to church only for sunday service and when you go, you go for the sake of going and not being fired up for jesus. you nvr go for any bible study and you are only at church for about 2 hrs a week. it's okay. you are not sinning. but you are not in the perfect will of God.

Sermone - But God
if you are a Christian, you will realise that in a bible, there are many " but God "
this sermone is also smth about faith.

God is the author of faith in our lives and terror does not come from God. some non-Christians think that Christianity is some cult thing and they choose to believe that it's a bad thing. but let me tell you, terror comes from the Devil. it is God who gives you the comfort.

sometimes in life, there are many things like problems that we face that will make us anxious. let me tell you, nvr let anxiety overcome you. when it does, faith leaves you. sometimes in life you just feel so confused, like having an emotional breakdown. and you are like, totally wrestling with your emotions. let me tell you, get used to it. life is full of this kind of situations which you are totally confused and so on. that's why you have to get used ot it.

faith is like water. water around you. and God has a certain way of communicating with you. and his way are like electric waves. as you know water is a good conductor of electricity. but unbelieve, not believing in God, will act as a rubber, which is an insulator of electricity. this then prevents communication b/w you and God.

`there will always be temptations in our life, may it be gadgets clothes or musical instruments when let's say you already have one. BUT God will get us out from the temptaions.

` some people in your life might plot a plan to bring you down because they have hatred or they just simply don't like you. BUT when God is on our side, He will turn things around and make those people suffer in their own plans that they have plotted.

` when everybody forgets or forsakes someone, he/she has nth to fear or worry, cause God will be with him/her.

Forget - not the Lord, God

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today is the first day in which the latest i have stayed back in church. haa. and today is also the day which i finally jumped! pastor was just saying that God gave us legs to jump. and that if we don't jump, we will be brought to a corner and be given an handicaped stamp. haa. then it was like if the people beside you don't jump, you are suppose to carry them or whatever to get them to jump. haa

I JUMPED! THE FEELING WAS SO GREAT! =)

posted by Rod @ 11:50 PM,

thanks, God, for answering my prayers.

posted by Rod @ 11:30 PM,

i'm feeling.. don't what to say. decided to skip dinner. don't feel like eating. don't know why suddenly no appetite

today's preaching was a video by a pastor about working in a local church.

i don't know why i suddenly feel so down after the thing. i kept thinking about the previous video that i have watched. the one that Bale Wilson was preaching. odn't know why it kept filling my head up.

the main thing : one person can make a difference, despite of your background or where you are from
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there was once a girl who couldn't master english well and went to work in a church. she could not absorb most of the preaching as her english was bad but she was faithful to God just like all the other christians. she then wanted to help out in church and going around saving small children. the pastors of that particular church agreed to let her go. it was like months before she actually proposed to the pastors about helping out.

and the only english sentence she learnt was : " i love you, Jesus loves you ".

so she went on to work as something like a bus attendant and that bus only picks up children to churches for either services and so on. so on her first day of work, there was a lilttle boy sitting at a lil corner at the backseat. he was filthy and dirty and didn't have a proper home to stay. for your info, the children in that bus either came from broken families or suffering from poverty. so the girl then decided to talk to the boy because he was all by himself.

but she didn't know what to say. her english wasn't that good. so she sat beside that boy and said, " i love you, Jesus loves you ". the boy was like 4, 5 years old then and couldn't speak well. the girl then kept repeating the same thing to him over and over again.

days passed by, the girl and the lil boy then became friends. everyday when picking the children up, when the boy came, he would walk to the girl and sit on her lap and have fun with her. something like when you play with a baby. the innocence of the boy was then clearly shown. the girl will then repeat " i love you, Jesus loves you " over and over again in the bus to him eithe when picking the children up or fetching them home.

one fine day when the boy was about to leave the bus for home, he went close to the girl's ear and said, " i..i...i... l.lo...lo..lov..love... yo...you.... Je..Jesus.. lo..loves... you.. " and then he left the bus.

the next day when the bus went to pick him up, he could not be seen. he was found dead near a rubbish dump near his house. he did not have a proper house, it was at a void deck of a block or smth and he slept on cardboard boxes. the girl could not believe that he was dead..

the last words that the boy heard were, " i love you, Jesus loves you ". the boy felt the love of God and the girl made a really great impact on just a lil boy's life.

one person can really make a difference.

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`God gave everything that i have to me. even the people that i sit beside during service is all planned by God.
`God made everyone different in a way. you don't have to be like anyone else.

if you look at something which you really want and you want it so badly, and then you look at the price tag, sometimes you get pissed. everything comes with a price, you want that something?. you have to pay a PRICE for it. it sure gonna cost you.

sometimes in life, things just come and go.. happiness and sadness come and go as well. as when you have lost something dearly to you, are you going to sit at one corner and start crying?. okay crying a while it's okay. but are you going to do that forever?. life still has to go on. no one is gonna wait for you, but God is there for you.
HE sees you through every step that you take and if you might fall, it's not HIM that is gonna pick you up. it's YOU who's gonna pick yourself up. but He's there to ensure that you stand steadily.

we only have a lifetime to do things that we want and treasure what we have. we do not have a thousand or a million years to do so.

maybe a second ago i was having in possession of something, who knows the next second, it will be gone. when you come close enough to this kind of situations, you change.

i don't have to care what other people think of me, i live for myself, her and for God.

i don't know why i'm typing all these. i'm jst having a feeling that things that is gonna happen the next day is so unpredictable. everytime i think of the sermone by Bale Wilson, i just feel so impacted by him and there's alot of things that i wanna say and do before it's too late.

i will cherish and treasure you,
not today, not tmr, not the day after..
but forever.

you are the one who made that difference in my life.

posted by Rod @ 9:00 PM,

now i know that i don't need any coffee to keep me awake. haa

it was that 7 beautiful and totally awesome hours. haa.

everyday, it's you i live for,
everyday, i'll follow after you
everyday, i'll walk with you.

posted by Rod @ 2:55 PM,

haa. my life is starting to change for the better.. from boring to super fun! =)

had a food cross yesterday! organised by church. it's very similar to the channel 5 show which you link from one food to another and you have to taste that food. it's totally fun! although i didn't really participate, it was still fun!. my english and chinese isn't that strong, so very difficult for me to link from one food to another. i didn't really understand the rules either.

haa. i even met terence during the game. my grp was at cineleisure buying the vegetarian pao for the game. haa

then the top 3 winners of the game get to eat free hamburgers from macs! wahh. but i didn't get to win larrh. but i was happy though. cause that was actually a food competition to see which group can finish the same no. of hamburgers the fastest. those who actually ate in the end either didn't feel so well or they were bloated and had a stomache.

haa. then after that went to cineleisure and walked around with the others. then actually went to the neo shop and ka jiao 3 girls cause they were taking. then after a while of chatting in the shop, decided to take ourselves. haa.

there are others larrh. but these are the 3 that i have with me. haa

haa. then after that went to meet my family and then went to suntec for some shopping at Careffour. haa. guess who i saw. alicia and wei fang. alicia was like with her family.. and she just walked past me and went up the escaltor and she didn't see me. haa. sad. =( just joking. she's like so tall and tanned. i even thought of what to say to her the next time i see her.

here it goes.. " Why you so tall?!?! "

then i saw wei fang in carefour. she was with a family then she like, got a shock when she saw me. like saw a ghost or smth like that. haa

today's service was great! i mean, very service and bible study have been and will always be great. haa. i recieved a card! thanx h.o.G.c C5! i love the card. i was so touched when i opened the envelope. haa. it's like so nice of them! =) i have nvr regretted going to church! =)

i shall end here for now. haa.

posted by Rod @ 10:17 PM,

posted by Rod @ 11:28 PM,

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